This fear.

Phobias.

everyone has fears. We are all afraid.

Fearlessness is not the absence of fear.

as Taylor Swift cleverly puts it, "Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death."

I mean, everyone's afraid of something, we all have phobias, no matter how mild.

Apopophobia- fear of bee's.
Spheksophobia- fear of wasps.
Coulrophobia- fear of clowns.
Agateophobia- fear of insanity.
Kakroohaphiophobia- fear of failure.
Emetophobia- fear of vomiting.
Agilophobia- fear of pain.
Podophobia- fear of feet.
Arachnophobia- fear of spiders.
Aichmophobia- fear of needles.
Nosocomephobia- fear of hospitals.

Above are my fears...some of them at least. Yeah a few are a little weird, but I'm not ashamed of them. No most of them aren't phobia's because yes i have to live with them, i mean bee's, they're everywhere; feet, I have feet...duh. My point is, these are all things that I am afraid of, things that scare me, things that I hate to go through but i know I have to. No matter how much I want to say it, I will not live my life in fear. I will not "hope" for these things to disappear from my life. If fears were non-existent, nobody would ever really go anywhere in life. Think about it, most of the time some of the best choices we make in our lives scare us shitless, but never do we end up regretting making those decisions. Why? because even if the outcome turned out for the worse, we gained knowledge, we learned. I know that fear had made me do some really stupid things, but over all those things, I can honestly say that my best choice was made despite of one of my biggest fears, and because of it I am the happiest girl in the world.

"Do one thing everyday that scares you."
- Eleanor Roosevely