Inspiring

My pastor at church told the most amazing story the other day, and I just need to share it. So basically he was in the streets of Ottawa one day years ago, and he saw a woman running by, a young african American woman to be exact. A few momens later, he saw a group of white males run by as well. Immediately without thinking, he began to run as well. When he found the group, they were in an alley. The woman was cowering on the ground, and surrounding her were the men ferociously kicking her. Bruxy (my pastor) squeezed into the middle of the circle, spread out his hands and said  "I follow Jesus and that means that there are two things I cannot do: one is fight you, and two is sit by and do nothing, so all I can say is kill me first. Kill me first, just kill me." Now first the men were confused, "why is this man defending her, hes white?" Bruxy just kept repeatring "kill me, just kill me" . The guys ended up leaving, either because they were jsut so weirded out, or they were afraid of the poliece showing up. Either way, they left, and the woman was safe.

This story, honestly gives me so much hope. This man Inspires me to do so much.

Psalm 17:4-5

Just reminding myself  :)

I'm not trying to get my way

in the world's way.

I'm trying to get your way,

your Word's way.

I'm staying on your trail;

I'm putting one foot

In front of the other.

I'm not giving up.

Psalm 17:4-5

Tell me Why...

Why does everything always get so complicated with me...

You know when you just need to escape to that place, that special place.

The usually imaginary place, where you feel so safe and warm, and like nothing could ever hurt you.

The place where even bad thoughts can't reach you.

That perfect serenity.

That beautiful place.

 ...I need that place.

So peaceful, nothing could go wrong.

Where,

Where is it?

Help me, tell me please. God, where is that place? Why haven't I been there in so long? I've had glimpses, beautiful lapses in time, when there was perfection. But really, when can I go there again? Have I ever really been there? Why not?

Why do we doubt sometimes, wouldn't it be perfect to live in a world without doubts?

I guess I just have to remember that:

     He is here, He is Alive, He is Love.

     He will always be there for me, no matter what.

"Embrace who you are, but don't apologize."

-Selena Gomez

This took me a while to achieve. Now I'm trying to convince some other very important individuals this.

Please, I need your help.

“Don’t take back the godless nations as your models. Don’t be impressed by their glamour and glitz, no matter how much they’re impressed…But God is the real thing – the living God, the eternal King.”

Jeremiah10: 2, 10.

 First off, it RHYMES! rhymes make me happy. The Word makes me happy. Mix the two, and I'm ECSTATIC :D Secondly, it's truth just blows me away. It's so easy to get sucked into things that "seem" right. Or things that "look" okay. Sometimes we need to take a step back and really see, not just look, SEE our lives, and evaluate. Check to make sure we're still on the right track. BUT, what if we don't know where that track leads? Tricky question, all I know is that as long as we Trust in Him, everything will be okay. Just trust and follow your heart. Everything will be okay.

It's True

Prayer Changes Things.

25 things

Remember that annoying 25 things note that EVERYONE had and tagged you in on Facebook a while back. Well i re-visited my old one and was surprised at how many things have changed since then, So here I go again. 25 things about me:

1. Philippians 4:13 is what I live by,

' I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.'

God is my strength and my shield, I can do all things through him. He gives me the strength to live and carry his word.

2. I like to speak my mind.

3. I'm a Vegetarian : ) It was a personal choice I made almost 4 years ago. 'Animals are my friends... I don't eat my friends.'

4. It's SusanA! not Susan, okay? thanks! 

5. I LOVE to read!

6. I sing along to almost EVERY song I hear... even if I don't know it.

7. Lately, I've really been into what my friend calls 'Jesus Music'.

I love worship music, and listen to it ALL the time.

8. I play the piano and the Trumpet, and I'm learning the drums.

9. I absolutely ADORE taking photographs... I'm not very good at it, but I'm learning as I go along

10. I find shopping therapeutic, which can get very dangerous very easily :P

11. I firmly believe that my mission is to Change the World, in any way I can.

12. I like to make people smile :)

13. I AM a tree hugger, don't hate (:

14. I speak 2 and a half languages. English, Portuguese and kinda French. My first Language was a mixture of Portuguese and English. (quando eu was little, I falei assim) I really confused my kindergarten teachers : )

15. I love learning but I hate school. I tend to give myself over to stress and live very unhealthy when it happens.

16. I am so incredibly exited for this summer, mainly because I'll be able to drive wherever I want alone :)

17. I love Mark!

18. I fall, ALL THE TIME.

19. I hate feet! ... its a phobia.

20. I'm 5'2... YAY i grew an Inch since I last wrote one of these :P

21. I get Migraines a lot.

22. I am very proud at the fact that I have been going to church every week since the new year... It was one of my resolutions. The Meeting House FTW. And I love that I look forward to church all week :D

23. I am weird, and am constantly reminded of the fact :)

24. I love to play soccer!

25. I need a job!

2009

So incredibly late, well i actually wrote this earlier in the week not intending for it to be on the interweb, but HEY nobody reads this anyways :) - if you are reading this, yes i know it won't make sense...the expanded version is safely away in my journal up in my room - AND I'm procrastinating, so hopefully after this, the coffee I had will kick in and I'll be conscious enough to get some studying done :)
 

2009, by far the CRAZIEST year yet .
Experienced the lowest low to the highest high and went from being as far from God as anyone could be to where I am now (learning more everyday).
2009 made me a better person.
2009 taught me countless life lessons that I will NEVER forget.
2009 was a good year.
 

In 2009, I was in a relationship.
In 2009, he left me.
In 2009, I blocked my feelings away and lived like a robot.
In 2009, I was hit with the hardest punch of emotion that nearly suffocated me.
In 2009, I pretended to be okay.
In 2009, I went to Florida without my parents
In 2009, I was so confused about boys, I never thought I would have anyone.
In 2009, I was surprised.
In 2009, I re-discovered God and began to live again.
In 2009, I was saved...again.
In 2009, I turned 16.
In 2009, someone who was just a friend became so much more than that.
In 2009, I fell in love.
In 2009, he changed my life.
In 2009, I almost failed math class.
In 2009, I learned how to drive.
In 2009, I went to wonderland more than once.
In 2009, I went to the States to play soccer.
In 2009, I learned what it was like to have someone truly love me for who I am.
In 2009, my Âvo killed himself.
In 2009, my Tia died.
In 2009, I wished I could be in Portugal with my family.
In 2009, I ran 7k.
In 2009, I worried about my friends.
In 2009, I realized I was more than halfway done high-school, which scared the crap out of me.
In 2009, I became a better person.
 

God, thank you for this year. I'm sorry for forgetting about you.

2010 will be better!

Yes, it's in french.

Si je trouvais une lanterne magique et qu’un génie m’a accordé trios souhaits je demanderais que…


1) Je souhaiterais que l'argent et l’avidité n'ait existé pas dans ce monde. Si vous pensez à lui, la plupart des problèmes dans le monde doivent font parce que les gens veulent plus que qu'ils ont déjà.
2) Que tout le monde pourrait voir la beauté de le monde et c’est le monde qui soutient notre vie. Les gens ont besoin de se rendre compte que quelquefois les choses que nous faisons à notre monde nous reviendront…peut-être pas nous directement mais pour notre générations futures. Jamais l'action a une réaction.
3) Comme mon dernier souhait, je souhaiterais pour plus de souhaits, mais je ne pense pas qu'il serait permis. Si plutôt je demanderais pour l'amour et le bonheur éternel pour tous gens dans le monde.

Who cares what they think?

Honestly, it DOESN'T MATTER!

This fear.

Phobias.

everyone has fears. We are all afraid.

Fearlessness is not the absence of fear.

as Taylor Swift cleverly puts it, "Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death."

I mean, everyone's afraid of something, we all have phobias, no matter how mild.

Apopophobia- fear of bee's.
Spheksophobia- fear of wasps.
Coulrophobia- fear of clowns.
Agateophobia- fear of insanity.
Kakroohaphiophobia- fear of failure.
Emetophobia- fear of vomiting.
Agilophobia- fear of pain.
Podophobia- fear of feet.
Arachnophobia- fear of spiders.
Aichmophobia- fear of needles.
Nosocomephobia- fear of hospitals.

Above are my fears...some of them at least. Yeah a few are a little weird, but I'm not ashamed of them. No most of them aren't phobia's because yes i have to live with them, i mean bee's, they're everywhere; feet, I have feet...duh. My point is, these are all things that I am afraid of, things that scare me, things that I hate to go through but i know I have to. No matter how much I want to say it, I will not live my life in fear. I will not "hope" for these things to disappear from my life. If fears were non-existent, nobody would ever really go anywhere in life. Think about it, most of the time some of the best choices we make in our lives scare us shitless, but never do we end up regretting making those decisions. Why? because even if the outcome turned out for the worse, we gained knowledge, we learned. I know that fear had made me do some really stupid things, but over all those things, I can honestly say that my best choice was made despite of one of my biggest fears, and because of it I am the happiest girl in the world.

"Do one thing everyday that scares you."
- Eleanor Roosevely

TWLOHA

so I'm a day late with this post...figures....

It was awesome to see SO many people at my school with LOVE written on their arms yesterday.

I mean it's really getting the message out.

"We often ask God to show up. We pray prayers of rescue. Perhaps God would ask us to be that rescue, to be his Body, to move for things that matter. He is not invisible when we come alive. I might be simple but more and more, I believe God works in love, speaks in love and is revealed in our love.... We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless"

p.s Permanent marker is REALLLY hard to wash off.... :P

"Be Brave. Be Strong. Don't give up.

Expect God to get here soon."

-Psalm 31:24 (The Message)

Sometimes we just have to remember that it will be okay. No matter what.

:)

YAY for Helvetica font!
 ...just putting that out there : )

hmm.

hmm,
approaching change...
where does one start?

myself.

There is so much to do, obviously.

inspired,
I will change things.


"I want to see miracles, see the world change"
-Switchfoot

This Feeling.

Imagination running wild,

Feeling my heart beat.

My cares are that of a child

The thought, so sweet.

The imaginative rush,

Adrenaline going through my brain.

These feelings coming up as mush,

It’s hard to explain.

This sense of release,

This view of perfection.

There really is peace!

And a feel of protection.

Though it’s misunderstood,

To be something weak.

Poetry strengthens the heart,

The mind and the soul.

It makes us unique.

You Are my Strong Tower

"The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe."
Proverbs 18:10

In You, I Trust.
In You, I Believe.
In You, I find Shelter.
In You, I am Strong.
In You, I am Fearless.
In You, I can do Anything!

"...
I go running to your mountain
Where your mercy sets me free

[chorus]
You are my strong tower
Shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortress when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I seek

In the middle of my darkness
In the midst of all my fear
You're my refuge and my hope
When the storm of life is raging
And the thunder's all I hear
You speak softly to my soul"
-'Strong Tower' KUTLESS

"The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. The LORD is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation..."
-Psalm 28:7-9

Time

Time is flying by,
tick-tock, tick-tock,
It's always working, always steady, always sure.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days.
Going as far as years, decades, centuries.
All the way through eternity, time go's on.
Tick-tock, tick-tock.

It is our responsibility to learn and grow as the time go's by. One could easily waste their life doing nothing, learning the bare minimum to live a comfortable life. But what's the point of that? Where's the adventure, the fun?

My promise is to dedicate my time to see the world change. No matter how small it is.
I know that God wants me to be the best that I can be in all that I do.
And I know that I am ultimately capable of achieving change.
... I think.

As time goes by, change will come.

"In order to see change, We need to change."
-WWF


"I can do everything through him who gives me strength."
-Philippians 4:13

(II) What If...

What if everyone changed?

If in one giant simultaneous bang, each and every person in this world instantly switched personalities?

Would the world come to chaos?

Imagine, a kind hearted, dedicated doctor suddenly not caring. A fierce, determined police person, now afraid. Your best friend, no longer trustworthy.

Who knows where we would end up?

This Place I'm in.

(I) What if...